It’s so easy to make excuses, but what can I say? I got up late again. In my defense, I was out until pretty late last night urban hiking at night also. So, getting up late was somewhat necessary. I worked all day again and got out way too late to make it to Krav Maga in time. Then I had to stop at my friend’s house to take out his garbage and throw away old bananas, check the mail, etc.. By the time I got home, ate something and got back out to go hiking, it was again, pretty late.
I only did three miles tonight. It took about an hour and then I packed it in. I still have to go home and prep a canvas for Art Walk tomorrow, but I know what will happen. I’m going to get home, lay on my bed and pass out. How the hell I’m going to fit in walking in the morning, laundry and prepping a canvas? I have zero idea, but it needs to be done. Ugh. Overachieving blows sometimes.
I’m definitely tired tonight and a little overwhelmed by some life circumstances. There are things happening in my life that are pushing me in a direction that would fuel my hiking and minimalism lifestyle, yet I’m fighting it because of fear, I think. I need to let go and let opportunity have its way with me. It’s just hard to walk away from comfort and what’s familiar and proven.
Why does change hurt so much, it’s constant scratching at the back door to your mind? Even change that could potentially give you the freedom to pursue goals and dreams feels odd and awkward when first initiated. Why can’t I just point my finger, know I need to buck up, and just do what is going to get me to the next level???? Why must I fight myself? Why am I making this so much harder than it needs to be?
I still have yet to even begin my GoFundMe page. That needs to become more of a priority. Plus, I finally have a bunch of information on my chosen companies to approach for sponsorship and I’m dragging ass.
Get it together Cindy-jo. Only six months left.
