A lot has changed in my life, and I haven’t really been keeping up with this blog, but maybe that needs to change.
I recently came back from a three week road trip with my niece who is 14. We traveled in my new van which is currently about half way built out. It’s a Ram Promaster 1500, high top. We explored much of New England and the eastern coast and Appalachian Mountain ranges down into Virginia. She wasn’t much for the hiking per se, but we made it work with camping and day hikes and exploring cities like Niagra Falls, and Salem. She’s a good kid, but I’m not used to kids, so we did have our moments which I think is natural. Would I do it again? In a heartbeat.
So, now I’m back in Fort Myers. My boss made the normal getting bitchy routine when I got back. I gave him my two weeks. He asked if I would stay on until he found another barber, which of course I will. I’ve been there nine years. Something has been changing with me lately though. My penchant for bullshit is about the size of a dime. The drama my boss likes to create is now not only old, but unbearable. So, it’s time to move on. Also, I have my own shop now, and I need to start focusing on that business instead of being afraid to pull the plug on my “job”.
In the meantime I’m still hiking the Florida Trail. It looks like a freaking jungle right now, and I swear if I’m going to continue to go out in summer during rainy season, a machete and waders are imperative. I don’t care how much they weigh. BUT it is still beautiful out there and the wildlife is fully alive at this time of year. Kind of amazing. I’m glad I am able to get out there and see these things, because sometimes it dawns on me that many people never will. I’m lucky, I guess.
I’m still out there looking for love by the way. I’ve found several men I think worthy, but the common message is “I’m working on myself. I’m not ready for a relationship. You are too good for me.” This is what I have heard in one form or another from the last four men I have wanted to date. Unfortunately, I’m wiser than that. The only commonality these four situations have is me. All these men come from completely different walks of life, from different places and are of different ages. So, it’s me, not them.
So, what is it about me that chases men off so quick? Or is my friend Alex right, my picker is broken. There is nothing wrong with me, I just attract men who can’t give me what I need. OK… I’m asking myself what I can do to understand my predicament more clearly. Looking for a partner can be exhausting, and in the meantime, I’m pretty freaking lonely walking alone in the jungle. Don’t get me wrong. I’m good. I don’t need a man to hold my hand and keep me safe in this world , I’d just like some company. Oh and a massive amount of great sex would be kind of cool too. A girl can only take care of herself so many times before that becomes a bore. So, yeah.
My dating profile:
I own my own business. I have no debt. Money isn’t much of a motivator for me, but I never have a shortage of it. In fact, I need very little to live comfortably, but I work my ass off at most everything I set my mind to. I’m typically successful in my endeavours.
I have never been married. So, there’s no ex to contend with. I have no kids, but I like them. I don’t have any animals, but I like them also.
I live in a van, and I’m extremely handy with power tools. Building things is a passion.
I’m good for extensive periods of time by myself. I’m not the jealous type, and I love it when a man has his own interests and his own life outside of me. So do I, so…
I like all food, but I’m in great shape. I’m told I’m pretty. I’ve also been told I’ve been aging well.
I’m intelligent. (I think.) I also think I have a pretty good sense of humor.
In general I absolutely love people. I have amazing friends and I’m close to my huge family.
I’m spiritual. (Buddhist) I meditate and love yoga.
I’m good with mountains, beaches, grasslands or jungle, and I love any activity that is outdoors. I love traveling, to wherever as often as I can.
I’m creative. I’m an accomplished artist, writer, plus I play guitar and sing.
I’m good with PDA and I am very hands on, a healthy sex life is important to me
I am open to debate and discussion, I rarely get angry or yell, and I’m not into name calling or hitting. I can be a great listener, but also pretty good at communicating my thoughts.
What is it that makes me so undesirable????
